I think the best inspiration for me to get all of my papers done by the first week of May is that the sooner that they are finished, the sooner I’ll be able to have my nights completely free so I can start working out like I used to. I am sidelined (still) because of my 5th metatarsal injury. It’s very frustrating because I want so badly to strap on my new shoes and run, especially since I have a race next Sunday, but I know that there’s no such thing as “no pain, no gain.” Haha, my friends keep joking around with me, saying “athletes play injured all of the time.” I know better than that though; if I run, this won’t heal, and if I’m not healed, I can’t run. I’m still doing swimming and yoga and it’s been helping. I wish I had time to ride my bicycle but Newark isn’t very bike friendly and there isn’t time in my schedule to go from Newark to Hoboken or the city to ride double digit miles like I’d want to. I’m just crossing my fingers that I will be able to kick this in time for the race. If I’m still in pain, as much as it sucks to miss out, I won’t run it.
I guess sacrifice makes us stronger, and that’s what I keep reminding myself. Recently, I found out that I just got promoted which is awesome. I’m absolutely thrilled because I love GIS analysis and working with data. I can’t wait to graduate so I can move on from academics and truly focus on learning code and learn more best cartographic practices so I can become more of an asset. But of course, there’s a cost to everything and these next couple of weeks are going to be a little expensive. $114 for my cap and gown, $798 is due on April 28th for my last tuition payment. By May 17th, I need to satisfy paying my Rutgers health insurance balance, which currently is $600. Normally, my health insurance would be put into my tuition payment plan but for some reason the University didn’t factor that cost in when the plan was drawn up and in late March, I found out there was a financial hold on my account. Thankfully, the University isn’t putting extra hold charges because they realize it was their mistake but when you’re only pulling in barely a grand every two weeks, while paying all of these expenses, it’s not easy. I had to tell my friend that I planned to live with that given my current financial situation that I can’t live with her because I don’t have enough to front security, a broker fee, and rent. Originally, I was planning to use my tax refund to cover most of the apartment expenses but now that money is being used so I can meet my current situation. Thankfully, I was able to find a great apartment on Craigslist that has reasonable rent and security, and I think my new roommate and I are going to get along awesome, so I guess there’s a silver lining to everything, even when your plans don’t work out the way you thought they would. I just can’t wait until the middle of May where I will able to take a deep breath and know that the struggles I’m currently facing will be non-existent because my promotion will be official. I also realize that even though I feel like I’m being squeezed, in the the grand scheme of things, I’m not in a bad spot. Things could be a lot worse. Besides, I’m not above eating peanut butter and jelly. Believe it or not, it’s one of the best things a runner can eat and it’s even better on some good bread.
The way I see it, in a few weeks, it’s all going to be a memory, and I’ll be waking up with New York City right outside my window. I don’t know what’s going to happen after that; it all feels very promising. Yet I’ve seen that even when things don’t align the way you want them to, even if it takes days or years, it all ends up working out.